To whomsoever it may concern

Dear YOU,

Often when I’m alone, I always like to think about all the rough roads I trekked. You know when I was in college, my friends told me, “Hey Rob, you would make it big someday.” I don’t know if I made it big but I think I did pretty okay for myself. Right now I’m seated in my recliner in my big apartment with a luxury car parked in the garage downstairs. I’m doing great my people say and I wouldn’t like to deny. Though in college, I had bigger aspirations. I loved my friends beyond anyone & wanted everything I wished to have in life, for my friends as well. Success, fame, money, health, happiness – I always thought we’d all achieve it together. How emotional and sentimental! Yeah, those times didn’t require brains to think. My friends were everything to me.


Me with my college frnds

Often we all friends tried doing work together just on my insistence because I wanted to defy a line – you’re always alone at the top. I wanted to have my friends all the way to the top & higher. When the passion for work doesn’t match in a team, it only fails. We failed too, may be because others didn’t want to achieve things as fast as I wanted to, as the way I wanted to or what I wanted to. Though we were very close to each other, combining life – we all had different callings.
Once when life turned soar for me – I thought I should be seeking my friends help but it was my battle & for once after defying and failing, I wanted to accept & practice – you’re always alone at the top!

Infact, I was out of any other option.

At the age of 17, I stayed in an unknown city for 7 days with hardly any money to survive for work. I remember once I was so scared, I cried like a baby. I was all alone. I failed but didn’t give up. At the age when my pals enjoyed the best of college after times, I rushed to travel 20miles to work and sell something I had no idea of. I don’t know how I survived the lie to myself that I can sell it. The only rest I had was in the train when traveling. No one to pat me on the back and assure me, tough times wouldn’t last. I was all alone.
Despite of everything, I continued working – did whatever work I got. Studied, got into something I loved doing & now I’m here. During the time of my way up, I gave up on a lot of things. Affection, expression, love, family, many things. Someone had told me that time, there is a time for everything. I hardly met friends, they thought I didn’t care. Family relatives & their functions bored me, successful people made me want to become big, love was not in the time frame anywhere. I trekked, I trekked and I trekked all alone & I reached somewhere in life.
I’m Rob, successful, young, self made & happy with whatever I have managed to do with life. Today’s my 28th birthday & I have one resolution made in life- I don’t want to be alone anymore just because life is what it is because of the people in it and the drama they create. Its this time for me now...doing things for others, sharing and caring.


Life throws a few interesting dilemma’s to me:
- Should I go back to my old college friends and we all try to do something once again? I’d love to, but I don’t know how’d they react? Our lives and priorities would be more different now.
- Should I meet new people & try making great new friends? Would I able to love them the way I loved my old friends?
- Should I go find love and find the lady of my life & tell her to fix things for me...ha ha! I so want to love and be loved.
The only reason I’m penning this one is because I’ve decided I’d seek someone’s help. Yeah I should have balanced things, yeah done all things simultaneously and blah and blah. I know I’ve screwed up a bit, well actually messed up big time to be honest. Well, this is where I stand right now?


Tell me what to do?

Yours truly,

Rob
(Your next door loner with a reason)