My 3am Friend

It’s around 2 o’ clock in the night right now. I just switched the TV off and I put the lights off as well. Checked my mobile phone, No New Messages, No Missed Calls. Still I go through my messages, check my log. It read the last call at 12.24 am.

Here’s the scene:

Everything around me is come to a standstill. You can hear even the lowest of noises making a big hear. Everyone in the house is already in for a late Sunday morning sleep, everything is calm and quiet. Despite the calm and quietness around there’s this chaos going on somewhere. Where’s this undisturbed place where things are just clashing every second. Peace and serenity all messed up. It’s the headpiece of mine called MIND.

I almost am getting 60thoughts/minute. They’re just coming in and going out. Perhaps am this one person right now who’s feeling the rush through me. I don’t know why but the desire to express these thoughts out to someone is scaling new heights every second. Thoughts meeting thoughts is the need of the hour.

I think I should call up someone, call up someone and talk it out. Empty my mind, get tired of talking and go to bed and say, “hey you know what, we talked for 5 hours yesterday night, wow!”, update my face book status about my 3am friend the next day.

I really would have done that. I went through my phonebook and found a few potential names who wouldn’t mind giving me a hear and infact am missing my 3am friend a lot right now. But as of now I cannot talk to her. I really would have called up someone but before I picked up the pen and the paper to right something I wished to share with everyone reading this….

Instead of saying a hello to someone on the phone, I get up, go to my balcony, look at the sky, look around for a while. Suddenly don’t know what gets into me, my voice box just says “hello”. Something within me that just asked about how am I doing?

This insane excitement of talking to my myself and being like really a ‘lost it’ person, butterflies went through me, I said ‘great’ enthusiastically or a few deep breathes and picking one thought up, I asked to myself:

Wwhat’s going through you?

I just said,

“ I don’t know, I feel like I need someone. Someone I can talk to someone I can share anything with someone I can tell I don’t like you, someone I can tell I had sex despite having a girlfriend. Someone I can tell you know the last time I accidentally wet my pants, was a week ago. Someone who asks me have you really moved on? And I say no

All those pretending to the world put aside and all this honest answers coming out.

Tell me what you want to do?

You know what I feel like doing all the right things I mean I know what I have to do, I know smoking kills, I know not studying is really not cool. I know having 4 night outs in a week is wrong but I just can’t help myself.

Okay…hey what about your birthday?

On this birthday I really want to call everyone, literally everyone. Ya even that bitch who didn’t call me on her birthday and show them my superiority. Tell them I’m hurt and I fucking don’t care about the fact that you all kicked me out! Call up my best friends up hug them and tell them I love you. Call up my girlfriend and tell her she is the best thing that has happened to me

Smiles!

Hey what about tomorrow’s plans?

Ya man, even though I am short of money. Sunday has to rock I think I should just go out have food skip bowling for one week. I think with less money borrowing isn’t cool. It’s okay.

60 thoughts 60 answers all met with question kept on coming and right answers kept on getting prompted. Even if I did 2 things of the honest answer I gave myself, I would love my 3 am buddy

Cos he was someone I could talk anything to.

I even confessed that the girl I told my friends am going around with, I am not I don’t like her I just talk to her cause everyone says she looks gr8 and I need to have her but actually it is just a fling.

Well I couldn’t have discussed ALL this with my 3am friend, I could have talked for 5 hours sure but not this and actually this is what I want in my 3am friend someone I can tell anything to, I just found him

It’s ME!

(I think you should discover this 3AM friend of yours. Guess some of you might have already did. What say you feel the same about your own friend? Your own 3am friend?)

P.S: I also confessed that despite this blog, I need my friend who hears me out on the phone because talking to one person everyday would be so boring, nai?

P. P. S: The talks mentioned above are all imaginative. I never wet my pants three weeks ago nor did I have sex despite having a girlfriend. Just an attempt to exemplify the fact that we do not get embarrassed talking anything.

- Bhavesh Dodi(y)a